Lately my head's been kinda funny.

I don't really get why.

Maybe I'm going through like a withdrawal process, where I know I should start detaching myself with certain people;

My family and friends especially.

I've always thought of myself as someone independent. I wasn't especially vulnerable. Spiteful, maybe.

Now I'm not so sure anymore.

Morrie Schwartz told Mitch Albom to give in to emotions fully, let it seep into the soul wholly, and then let go completely. That, he says, is the perfect antidote to combat fear.

But is fear the accurate emotion that I'm feeling right now?

Possibly, possibly.

Or it could just be that time of the month again.

Juncture

I love how he quotes the Qur'an a lot. I like the fact that he knows a lot about our history, about our religion. I like how he put in the Isra' allusion in the speech. I like the fact that he gave the speech in Al-Azhar. That in itself, is a mark of respect. The speech, in its entirety, is in line with my own personal beliefs; I'm glad that the leader of the Free World is beginning to air out all the hostility between the West and Islam, and is willing to work towards a better future.

Some of my favourite excerpts:

"Too many tears have been shed. Too much blood has been shed. All of us have a responsibility to work for the day when the mothers of Israelis and Palestinians can see their children grow up without fear; when the Holy Land of the three great faiths is the place of peace that God intended it to be; when Jerusalem is a secure and lasting home for Jews and Christians and Muslims, and a place for all of the children of Abraham to mingle peacefully together as in the story of Isra -- (applause) -- as in the story of Isra, when Moses, Jesus, and Mohammed, peace be upon them, joined in prayer. "

"I recognize it will be hard to overcome decades of mistrust, but we will proceed with courage, rectitude, and resolve."

"America does not presume to know what is best for everyone, just as we would not presume to pick the outcome of a peaceful election. But I do have an unyielding belief that all people yearn for certain things: the ability to speak your mind and have a say in how you are governed; confidence in the rule of law and the equal administration of justice; government that is transparent and doesn't steal from the people; the freedom to live as you choose."

"I am convinced that our daughters can contribute just as much to society as our sons. " (I absolutely love this line. More people should realize this.)

"The Holy Koran tells us: "O mankind! We have created you male and a female; and we have made you into nations and tribes so that you may know one another."

The Talmud tells us: "The whole of the Torah is for the purpose of promoting peace."

The Holy Bible tells us: "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.""

Read the whole thing here.

The speech is pretty long, 55 minutes and the transcript spans around three A4 pages. But it's beautiful. And it is a start. It's a good start.

I completely understand the skepticism and the hostility from Gaza and Islamabad. If my house was torn apart and I lost family members in the hands of Americans, I would take this speech as something more of a political ploy.

But I believe in Obama's sincerity, in his willingness to forge a better relation between our wrongly misunderstood religion and the West. As he said; "I do so recognizing that change cannot happen overnight. I know there's been a lot of publicity about this speech, but no single speech can eradicate years of mistrust..."

But he's willing to take the small baby steps. Are we?

My Favourite American Idol performance

Flashback:



He never told the judges why he personally chose that song and felt it important that he sang it.
Now we know why.

I'm a huge Lambert fan. But Cook's the man I go back to time after time for an emotional check.

Christian the Lion AKA Why Woman's Day is the best tabloid in the world and should be trusted

You know, I don't get why my posts are so dreary when I'm actually a pretty contented kid.
Anyway,
do y'all know Christian the Lion? (and his two owners whose names I've forgotten)?
That clip of Christian hugging his two owners was way way back from the 70s and his ex-owners are pretty old now, ( maybe 60+)?
Anyway, they actually found Christian at Harrod's.
I kid you not. Harrod's actually put Christian up on sale.
=(

(I swear all this is true, I read it from Woman's Day!!!! You know, the magazine that said that a dingo would never eat a baby...)

Anyway, I digress.

Seriously, Harrod's is reputed to be one of the best luxury store in the world.
But it's a big PR boo-boo to sell endangered animals
I don't fell like visiting Harrod's anymore =(
and I really really wanted to see those Egyptian statues in the store = '(

(How noooow Naizzzzzz =(((( )

Darn you Harrod's.

Which brings me to another question;

Am I too (pseudo)-ethical for my own good?

I don't eat shark fins soup when it's served in front of me. People think I'm shtooopid.
(I mean, it is in front of me kan? Might as well eat, no?)

And there was this one time I was being super-annoying (actually, when am I not kan?) and I went around my house switching all the electrical appliances.
I still do that.

People still think I'm shtoooopid.

Oh well, I just think it's funny =D

Me0wme0wme0wme0w

Arctic

sometimes in the morning i wake up and i think about the Almighty i feel a certain fear but also some sort of contentment because fate and free will exist not as polar opposites but as complements.

Yet another rope cut loose

Congratulations. You’ve just spun a silvery white matter. Now lie in it. Breathe in and out. Comfy, is it not? Like sleeping on clouds. I’m sure it suits your body perfectly. What could possibly go wrong with your own creation? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. You are, after all, unflawed.

Now look up. Sun’s a little too bright for you, isn’t it? Well that’s because last night a cherub whispered in your sleep. Wait, are you sure it wasn’t a seraph? Or, or… or Faustus. There. That makes more sense. Faustus and Mephistophilis.

And how did they incite in you… wait, let me guess. “Faith, here’s an equivocator, that could swear in both the scale against the other scale,” Alas. With such testimony, I’m sure they would’ve immediately sought you out. And I’m sorry to see that you’re flattered by it.

Hence, the vapor of comfort you lie in; “(thou) possessed of those effect for which I did (pledge an oath with him)”.

But look there, at the mists’ edge. Do you see a black spot?

Look again.

Feel the atmosphere around you. “As glooming peace this morning with it brings,” is it not?

Still can’t see it? Well, that’s fine… for now.

I just wanted to tell you that:

I know your game.

And as it goes, that little black spot will grow bigger and bigger, until it consumes you, feeds on you, suffocates you…

And you’ll realize that you’ve been lying on a tangle of web all along.

And only a fool would not know that.

Prose II

Wouldn't it be crazy if one day I wrote a love song about you? Not one of those Juliet and Romeo allusions, just plain I. Wish. It. Didn't. Hurt. So. Much. We're going through this not bothering to calculate how much it will cost in the end. How much debt we owe the world in the end. Don't ever pop my bubble darling, try not to, because beneath this layer of scent and protective shield is just air. That's it. Air. Do I really need to tell you what fills it?