Wrote this post like a year back, but I feel like it resonates better now; I embed it much more now that I've grown up (just a lil bit!). College has taught me so much. I enjoy life now; I am happy with the people I hang out with, you guys are just fantastic. Thank you for accepting me into your lives.

To my family, I miss you every minute of the day. I'm swamped with work these days, I feel terrible that I can't come back more often. Regardless, I will try to keep tabs with all your lives, and I cannot wait for the holidays so I can go back home again and spend time with all of you. I love you and I miss you all very much.

Thanks to both parties for making my birthday so memorable! Great gifts, great celebrations. I couldn't ask for more.

So here goes;

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Lao-tzu says;
"Fame or integrity: which is more important? Money or happiness: which is more valuable? Success or failure: which is more destructive? If you look to others for fulfillment, you will never truly be fulfilled. If your happiness depends on money, you will never be happy with yourself. Be content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you."

Live and let be.

I could never quite get what the quote above meant till lately. Slowly, I’m getting complacent with how I am, who I am, where I am, and where I am going.In fact, I’m not even thinking of where I am going. I have vague ideas, vague dreams.I’ve done my part, and will keep on doing my part; and now I’m just living and letting it be.

I don’t think I know myself just yet; but I’m getting there. I am accepting howI am. I am accepting responsibility for my actions; because they are mine and I made a choice to carry them out. I don’t try to take the easy way out; blame my past or blame someone else for all the mistakes I have done. No more of those"because you didn’t love me enough" or "because I saw him/her do it", which I know I have done in the past. They are my own. And I’m prepared to say that in the future I might make more mistakes. They are mine. And I’ll try my best not to blame it on others.

For those I have wronged, I am truly sorry. There are no excuses for my actions. For those who have wronged me, I am truly sorry as well. I can be forgiving, but I can’t forgive someone who won’t admit their wrongs.

I don’t think I’m right at any given time; not even most ofthe time. That’s just selfish and slightly arrogant. You can learn nothing from being right. What we have are choices, what we have are opinions, and it’s our obligation to respect other people’s way of life. I won’t force my way into someone else’s life. In fact I won’t force anything. I’ll just live and let be.
I might be too young and stupid to make my own choices, but I hope one day I’ll be given the opportunity to do so.

I’m not sure if I’ve made anyone proud of knowing me, of being a part of my life. I don’t care much about that either. I don’t let myself into someone’s life in order to get something in return. I’ve done a lot of stuff people can consider as achievements. I’ve done a lot of stuff I consider as mistakes. I don’t think I’m proud of any of them. As for my achievements, I do it because I can. I’m not trying to prove anything to anyone. Not to impress, not to have someone tell me things to soothe my ego, not to make anyone proud of me.

I live with the satisfaction of knowing that I did a job well done, and that I’ve done my part to the fullest. That I’ve done it sincerely and honestly. That I didn’t wrong anyone whilst I was doing it. That alone makes me happy.

I don’t feel as if I’ve changed, but if I did, it’s probably for the better. I allow change to happen because it is a part of life. To progress, we must evolve. I think I’m still me (even though I’m not sure who I am), with some added changes.

I am young, I am learning. I’ll make a few mistakes, andI’ll allow myself too, because I am human. Perfection is something I do not want to achieve. I’m being realistic. At the moment, I’m surrounded by positive people. People who make me happy. I’m glad they’re in my life. My family, friends… it’s all good at the moment.

Yasmin binti Abdullah

For the record;
I loathe writing sonnets.

This has got to be the craziest assignment that I've ever had.
It just doesn't flow properly, and being the writing perfectionist that I am
it is just extremely dissatisfying.
Oh well, I'll figure it out somehow.

So so,



For those of you who were unfortunate enough to miss one of the best speeches of our time, here ya go.

Hope perseveres. With a little bit of wariness admittedly. Let us have faith in him, and wish him well. He has the potential to be the man who embodies the words of Martin Luther King, John F. Kennedy, and Abraham Lincoln.

All three were shot for their beliefs. Pray that this will not happen to him.

Change, we need. He says, "Yes, we can." Let us also hope that he keeps to his words, because yes, American can once again, awe the world with the joys of freedom, unity, and prosperity, and create a ripple effect of solidarity between nations.

He has won and created history. Now, we wait for change.